Very disappointing

​today at work, we had a safety meeting, the new person of the safety team is the reason why I’m writing this!

 Don’t remember her name because there wasn’t really anything remarkable about her except for the fact that she was dressed like a total slob ,SLOB I was so disgusted. I didn’t even wanna look at her when you have a higher up position you need to dress like you care about that position and this woman/I think she’s a he she , not quite sure couldn’t tell. Anyway absolutely disgusting. I didn’t even wanna listen to what this person had to say that’s how disgusting this person looked her sweatpants look like her ass was hanging down below her kneecaps and her shirt was so tight that you could see her jelly rolls everywhere. it was just absolutely disgusting. looks like she had just crawled out of bed , threw on a Jacket and came to work, I don’t understand how this could even be allowed in her position of being one of the higher ups as far as the safety team anyways, 

I don’t believe it. I just don’t believe it. 

 If I was a person who was interested in coming to see what Sekisui has to offer as far as building parts for my company, and I saw that woman and she was introduced as the person in charge of the safety team ,I would say I think I’ve seen enough. I’ll be on my way! Because I don’t understand what SEKISUI is trying to set forward as far as the impression that they are supposed to be trying to make for other companies, but had been from another company to come and see what I see we could do for my company I like I said would have said thank you. I have seen enough and I would have left the building without anything else because ,man that was absolutely. Disgusting if you don’t have enough respect for your job and dress like you care about it then you should not be at that job especially a higher up job anyway that’s my rant for the day.

Today is just another day

​so last week I applied for a job in the assembly area of where I am working at right now. I’m hoping that I find out Monday if I get to try out a new area or if I’m gonna be staying where I’m at either way it’s OK.

  It’ll work out one way or another anyway anyways, I talked to a few people that I know in Indiana, which was awesome, and I hate to say this, but the manager, the assistant manager and one of the other employees that worked at CVS when I was there in Indiana they all got fired. Wow what a chain. That’s too bad. I guess stuff happens when you at least expected it. Oh goodness I guess it was a long time coming ,so here I am sitting at home this weekend I cleaned out my flower beds. I have four big huge coat that I got from Home Depot two years ago and I filled them with soil so that I could plant vegetables in each one. Well, I cleaned them  out today and got them ready for the next round hopefully I will get some stuff to actually grow this year last year. I had fun flowers in One and I just let them go ahead and recede themselves and as I was cleaning them out getting them ready boil boy I have a whole bunch of flowers is gonna be in this one, but I can’t wait. It’ll be beautiful so as bloggers go, I guess if somebody’s gonna look to see to read this, then they’ll have to look and see to read it. I don’t know how to put it out there so that other people can find it but that’s OK as long as I talk to myself, it’ll be all right right I suppose. 

Trust is earned, not just given

​  So this morning, I woke up at 3:30 AM, for work. I wake up at 2 AM. Get ready for work get my lunch ready for work and then I leave by a quarter till three work starts at 4 AM.

  Anyway, today is Sunday and I’m watching a series called ,Dark Wind. It’s actually quite good. I was sitting here just thinking what should I write about well another page in my story so I have a neighbor her name is Lisa when I first moved into this apartment that I’m in she lived directly across from me across the common area in our apartment complex complex. I thought she was a pretty nice lady so we were sharing food on and off. I’d bring her something to eat that I was making and for my lunches/dinners, and she would bring me food over that she was making to eat for dinner that particular night and so I would take it the next day for my dinner at work anyway after several months they started saying the N-word which I do not appreciate at all. I’m not prejudice by any means, I don’t think that being prejudice makes anybody any smarter than the next person anyway. Anyway, another neighbor Nicole had come over and asked me if I was OK because I had been sick for several days and I told her I was getting better Thank you for asking probably we we were talking about something. I don’t quite remember what it was but I said to her I really don’t care for Lisa too much anymore because she keeps saying the N-word and I don’t appreciate that. I’m not prejudice in any way shape or form. Nicole had told Lisa what I had said apparently because for quite some time Lisa hadn’t said much to me after Nicole had told her that I didn’t care for Lisa saying the N-word . You a lot of times when you’re talking to somebody ,they’re going to go and tell the other person what you had said, but apparently you cannot tell anybody anything these days because for whatever reason Nicole had told Lisa what I had said. Apparently, most of the time you just shouldn’t say anything to anybody and just leave it at that because trusting somebody is becoming more and more harder. Trust is something earned . Trust is not just given , so throughout my many years  it took a while to learn. When you tell somebody something to see where it goes from there ,then you know at that point if they say something to the person that you are talking about, then you know you cannot trust them with anything else that may or may not be as important!

Sometimes you just have to

​sometimes you just have to put stuff out there on paper whether you like to or not, and sometimes you probably shouldn’t!

  There are times in life when you just have to say things you know you need to just to get stuff off of your chest, well here I go.

 Washington state because one of my children is very sick, I also have a grandson then he will be the only grandchild that I will ever have which I am grateful for thank you Lord Jesus and thank you to my son and his wife for giving me the opportunity to be a grandmother! And I came back home because I also have a third child who him and his wife I truly love a lot! I love all three of my children and the people who have become their partners in life! I love all seven of those people, my three sons and their partners in life, their wives and my grandson!

 I have to say, I wasn’t the best mother ever, but I also was never the worst mother either! I really was not ever taught how to be a mother or how to be a truly good person but, for the most part, I am a pretty good person! I taught my boys, unfortunately, fortunately, to be strong on their own and independent! Every time that they went somewhere, I always gave them a hug and a kiss and told them that I loved love them.

  Apparently teaching them how to be strong and independent made it difficult for myself later in life, which is now in my life, I told them when they were young that they could talk to me about anything at any time, and if they called me as they got older, I would answer the phone, no matter what time it was ,middle of the night or if they needed me for something I would go directly with no question no matter what they needed or if they needed just to talk, but now I call them most of the time because the phone actually does work both ways! Most of the time I’m the one who’s doing the calling apparently I made them very independent, maybe way too much independent but it’s a good thing for them and not a good thing for myself as now that I’m in my late 60s it makes me wonder why I push them away so far that they won’t even call me unless it’s maybe I don’t know once a month or not even that often maybe once every couple of months or so I moved back to Washington State so that I could be here for my son who is very ill because I could not stand to be thousands of miles away in Indiana with him being so sick. Anyway, now for the most part, they don’t really truly call me and if I do, they think that I am in need of something regardless of the fact that all I wanna do is say hello I love you! I don’t call them and ask them for a whole lot maybe to come over and help me move some kitty litter from my car to the house/apartment or maybe to help me move some furniture because I am in my late 60s and it’s getting harder for me to do stuff like that. I have felt that they would rather spend more time with my oldest sisters since she lives here in Washington State in the same area! No, I don’t feel sorry for myself. I don’t think that at all. I just wish I knew why they feel it’s easier to talk to my sister then their own mother anyway, I guess that that’s because of the way that I taught them to be independent to do things on their own like I was I really wasn’t taught very much of anything my own mother, which made it difficult for me, as I was raising my three boys! It is what it is and there’s nothing I can do to change it, that’s how things happen.    

  Though half of our family is democratic and the other half is republican my take on all of that is why can we not just get along because we’re family? Why do we have to  be divided because some of us believed in one thing an the rest of us believe in something else.  For instance, I feel that the government needs to be for the people, but most of the government is not some of you may agree in some of you may not, but that’s OK too, that’s what makes everybody different because if we were all thinking the same, then it wouldn’t be any fun now would it? Anyway, I believe that the government should work for we the people and not just for the government employee because that’s what they are. They are we the peoples employees because after all we pay taxes to pay for their supposed employment on our behalf. But enough of that, right?

 Anyway,  I was just sitting here watching TV and feeling sorry for myself because my kids do not call me and say hi how are you or what are you doing today or you know the normal stuff that some children even though they’re all grown up and have their own lives would at least say say hey maybe I should call my mom and see if she’s doing OK but I guess that’s how it goes. When you teach your children to be more independent! Unfortunately for me.

A new third beginning 💐

​There are many pages in your life that changed from one to the next! 2010 I moved to Indiana, and then in 2022. I moved back to my home state of Washington.

  I sold the property that I purchased in INDIANA, I packed a U-Haul and drove across country with another lady by the name of Rita. I got to see a lot of different things as we drove across from Indiana to Washington State. It was actually a nice trip lots of memories made for the both of us. 

I stayed with my sister Diane and was able to secure a job within a month, started my new job on October 16 official date was October 23 of 2022.

There are days that are more harder than others, I came back home to be with all three of my sons, and Indiana I had many ups and downs, many hard days some more depressing than others some more fun than most. I can’t say that I had true friends they were friends, but I can’t say that they were true friends because now that I am back in Washington state they really do not keep in contact with me although many times I have tried to keep in contact with them! But for those people that I left behind, I truly did think of them as my friends and I still do to this day . 

Good Morning, It is the day before Thanksgiving....
 I am Thankful for all that I have, for all of my family and all of the people that I have encountered throughout my life.
There are many thing that I have gone through in my life that I figure are life challenges from God, that said; I am so tired of coming in dead last all the time...
 I read a book a long time ago about our souls..... that got me to thinking about what it may be like to not be HERE ... I could go where I wanted and have no feelings to get hurt or to cause hurt...     I have struggled all throughout my so called life, it seems that I take 5 steps back for every two forward. I am always getting told I am not good enough... Not in so many words but in actions of other people around me.
     It does not matter what I do it is NEVER enough to satisfy anyone,  I work very hard for what littlebit I have, I have people telling me you need to get rid of stuff, you need to throw away what you are not using, you need tooooooooo, What the hell do they know about the reason why I keep everything that I have  bought or saved or stashed away for that imperative rainyday.......
 Throughout my life I have had to FIGHT for every thankyou, every I care about you, and most of all I love you that I have ever gotten.  
          I have had people (I feel) not think that I am an honest person, I AM the most Honest person that many people will ever meet... I have integrity for doing the right thing and for TELLING THE TRUTH, some people do not like that about me but that is too bad ..... I do not hold any punches when I speak to people that in my opinion that do not have any common sense and seem that why the hell are you saying that, it sounds like you are stupid.......  If you do not like something that I have said say so.. do not go behind my  back and say to other people what it is that you think I am wrong about.... I CAN NOT CHANGE IT IF YOU DO NOT TELL ME!!!!!!,  I am willing to change if I am spoken to about whatever you think I have done or said that is wrong..  I am also the first person that will tell you if I have broken something or lost something or put something in the wrong place, MOST people will LIE their way out or say I DON'T KNOW HOW THAT GOT THERE................... 
   Do not feel bad that I am poor, that is how God has made my road in this life to be... maybe I was rich in another life and need to see what the other shoe feels like... this is MY path and I am the ONLY ONE THAT CAN LIVE IT..... On that note DO NOT LOOK DOWN YOUR NOSE at me as though I do not deserve the same RESPECT that you get/or have, because I do deserve that RESPECT.....
   They say the people that Smile the most and look happy are the ones that are in the most inner pain... That is SO TRUE... Looks are deceiving... I am Crying on the inside, you just do not see it because you are to busy to see past your nose...........
        Thank you LORD for.................................................................................( you fill in the Blank)

My Car fire experience....

      It happened shortly after I started working at SeaTac Airport. I had a list of items that I needed to purchase for my new job as a Fuller at the Airport. I went to Target in Lakewood  near where I lived.  I had a Chrysler LEBaron Gray and Black, I had a small boom box between the seats for a radio because the car radio did not work. When I got to the store there was only one place to park... Right between to brand new cars, one a new Lincoln and the other a Brand New  Cadillac.... The Lincoln still had the sticker on the back window from the dealership. I went inside and got the items on my list. I talked with several of the people that I used to work with, and went back out to leave to go home, I started my car and right away it caught on fire. There was NO way that I was going to let it sit there next to those new cars and possibly blow up, so I drove it to the overflow parking as far away as I could from everything else. The engine compartment was fully engulfed in flames and it was coming into the car from under the dashboard when the car died.....Scarry..... I took my purse and got out and shut the door.... (mistake #1).... lol  see I left my car keys in the ignition...
  next I realized that the flight coat was in the back seat and I needed to get it out because it was a $300.00 dollar coat and I had just started that job so I did not have #300.00 dollars to pay for it if it got burned up...... I opened the driver's door to unlock the backdoor (mistake #2) to get the coat out.... as soon as I got the coat out I shut both doors and called 911.........   conversation " 911... police, ambulance or fire..... "Fire" "what is the location?" " the Lakewood Mall".. " where at at the Lakewood Mall".... " the overflow parking at the Target location"..... " OH We have had about 30 calls about a car on fire there" "is that what you are calling about?"  "YES it is MY car on fire"..... " We have the fire department on their way"...... just as she was saying that the fire trucks came into the entrance of the Mall parking..... and of course it started raining while I was talking to the 911 operator.... LOL
 In the meantime there was a Van that had pulled up right next to my car on fire.... What a dumb ASS... I went over and told the guy driving to get away from there, if my car explodes he would get hurt and I ain't paying for his dumb ass......
  Fireman.... " are you ok?" "Yes I'm ok but my car is not....."    " is there anything that you need out of your car?" " Just my prescription sunglasses from the glovebox"...... Fireman " well I don't know that I can get them, see the glovebox is melted shut, but I will try when we get the fire out" .....Me "OK" just at that time there was a big BOOOOOM..... the right side front tire had exploded.....  It was crazy... The entire front right side raised up about two feet in the air and then the tire exploded........ Now I was far enough away from my car not to get hurt... and I was asking if any of the firefighters had brought hot dogs with them..... The one that asked me if there was anything that I wanted from my car came up to me and said " usually in his experience's with car fires, the women that has the car on fire is crying.... I said " why cry there is nothing I can do but watch it go up in flames....."    In the meantime... the other firemen were putting the fire hose inside my passenger side window and had turned on the water..... LOLOLOLOLOL  you see I had stuffed animals in the hatchback part and there was a Wheal ( Blue & White) just swimming around in the water that was being sprayed....I was laughing at that point.... seeing that whale going around and around with the other stuffed animals.... It was funny.....
  The firefighter got a crowbar and popped open the glovebox and got the glasses case out and brought it to me....  the only problem was that the case had a burn on it ... and the other amazing thing is I had a man's cowboy necklace that belonged to my dad and was given to me when he died hanging on the rearview mirror... it was perfect not a burn on it.... (I still have it to this day... the car fire was about 28 years ago.........) I had to pay $50.00 to have my car towed to a junk yard........