Good Morning, It is the day before Thanksgiving....
 I am Thankful for all that I have, for all of my family and all of the people that I have encountered throughout my life.
There are many thing that I have gone through in my life that I figure are life challenges from God, that said; I am so tired of coming in dead last all the time...
 I read a book a long time ago about our souls..... that got me to thinking about what it may be like to not be HERE ... I could go where I wanted and have no feelings to get hurt or to cause hurt...     I have struggled all throughout my so called life, it seems that I take 5 steps back for every two forward. I am always getting told I am not good enough... Not in so many words but in actions of other people around me.
     It does not matter what I do it is NEVER enough to satisfy anyone,  I work very hard for what littlebit I have, I have people telling me you need to get rid of stuff, you need to throw away what you are not using, you need tooooooooo, What the hell do they know about the reason why I keep everything that I have  bought or saved or stashed away for that imperative rainyday.......
 Throughout my life I have had to FIGHT for every thankyou, every I care about you, and most of all I love you that I have ever gotten.  
          I have had people (I feel) not think that I am an honest person, I AM the most Honest person that many people will ever meet... I have integrity for doing the right thing and for TELLING THE TRUTH, some people do not like that about me but that is too bad ..... I do not hold any punches when I speak to people that in my opinion that do not have any common sense and seem that why the hell are you saying that, it sounds like you are stupid.......  If you do not like something that I have said say so.. do not go behind my  back and say to other people what it is that you think I am wrong about.... I CAN NOT CHANGE IT IF YOU DO NOT TELL ME!!!!!!,  I am willing to change if I am spoken to about whatever you think I have done or said that is wrong..  I am also the first person that will tell you if I have broken something or lost something or put something in the wrong place, MOST people will LIE their way out or say I DON'T KNOW HOW THAT GOT THERE................... 
   Do not feel bad that I am poor, that is how God has made my road in this life to be... maybe I was rich in another life and need to see what the other shoe feels like... this is MY path and I am the ONLY ONE THAT CAN LIVE IT..... On that note DO NOT LOOK DOWN YOUR NOSE at me as though I do not deserve the same RESPECT that you get/or have, because I do deserve that RESPECT.....
   They say the people that Smile the most and look happy are the ones that are in the most inner pain... That is SO TRUE... Looks are deceiving... I am Crying on the inside, you just do not see it because you are to busy to see past your nose...........
        Thank you LORD for.................................................................................( you fill in the Blank)